Grief & Loneliness
Dear Hortense,
Being alone brings up so much grief & sadness for me. I am from a family who is not close, emotionally & in proximity. It is basically the opposite of the family dynamic I desire.
I have always used partnership to protect me from the pain of not feeling loved as a child. I am dreaming of the day someone simply wants to lay with me or hold my hand. I just want to feel loved.
How can I work through this?
- Hold My Hand
Dear Hold My Hand,
Well you can coach with ME to really get to the root of the solution!
This is PRECISELY the breakthrough I had weeks before I manifested my husband.
It is sad. It is OK to be sad. I'm so sorry you don't have the partner that you want today. I'm so sorry you were born into a family that doesn't meet your emotional needs. I understand how both of those things feel & they are truly terrible.
What I came to understand about myself was that I wanted a partner so desperately so that I could have a family & also, so I could be safe while interacting with my family of origin. But why couldn't I have a family? Do you need partnership to have a family? At the time it was me & my little dog (that I manifested) living in a studio apartment (but one with a claw foot tub that I manifested) in Echo Park. I decided that day: We are a family. In our family, we value XYZ. In our home, we treat people like XYZ. People & animals may join this family at some point, some will leave this family at some point (noooo my doggies…), but this is a family today.
A few weeks later (after some dates & boundary ascensions) my husband & I fell in love at a party & we have been together ever since.
xo
Hortense
